Nathan got his call a few weeks ago. He is going to the Asuncion, Paraguay misssion. He reports to the Argentina MTC on Thursday, May 23. It is a bit strange to know he is going to travel there by himself and just be dropped into a foreign country and language. Not that he parachutes in or anything ; ) I am not entirely sure how the logistics will all happen. And I must admit this call is taking a wee bit more faith on my part. New Zealand and Alabama seemed a bit easier to send my child to. Or maybe I am just older and more......something, not exactly sure what I am. But it will be good to have another missionary out. To look forward to the weekly letters, I think we are more united as a family when we read those weekly letters. And it is always good to step out of my comfort zone. And have more faith. Right? Nathan will make an awesome missionary, just as the thousands who leave each year are awesome missionaries.
Yesterday was our ward conference. It was good. Our stake president gave a great talk about being anchored and doing good things. But I am afraid all I hear is how much I fall short. For about three years I have struggled and carried some burdens, just stuff, but yesterday brought it up. I really feel like I have failed in my most important job. Being a mother. That somewhere I just didn`t teach or do enough. That feeling is always with me, every waking minute. Yesterday was rough, but I am grateful for being taught and reminded to try harder, reach farther. It hasn`t been very long since I stopped crying through sacrament meeting every Sunday, I am thinking those days may be back. And don`t think anyone is unkind, I just struggle.
On a happier note, kinda. We are remodeling our kitchen. Gary is so amazing and we can do improvements to our house because he does it mostly himself. He is already super busy, but he takes on this huge project and makes our home a better place to be. Well, better when it is finished! In the meantime we live in a construction zone, all of our food and pans and utensils are in the living room. In a state of disorganization. We have eaten a LOT of hot pockets. My goal is to locate the crockpot and utilize it. Should be awesome when it is finished!!!
Ok, I don`t know how to put pictures on my blog. And my blog guru Hannah is living in Utah. So, anyone who can explain the process in simple, VERY SIMPLE terms I would appreciate it. And at the same time remind me how to change the background and stuff? Oh, and I cannot figure out what blogger wants me to do with a new or old account?? So that info would also help. I would offer brownies to anyone who helped, but my kitchen has been demo-ed!! So I will just say thank you in a very heart felt manner.
